On the Eve of All Hollows

I took today off of work for Mental health reasons and am currently Chilling in bed watching Hocus Pocus and working on the homework I have put off for way to long. Ya like a 3-5 page paper due tonight and I hadn't started at all. With the current situation at home I haven't been able to do much of anything.
So as I lay here watching this wonderful halloween tale curled up with Edward( my long haired blue chihuahua)and Bella( my 3 month old black chihuahua) I am wishing I had a month before halloween was to be here. i finally feel like I could get into the spirit.
I have been posting a saying or Quote on my Facebook status and It is bringing back that spooky feeling.
You know the one right?
Where there is never enough time till Halloween
Where you can never start your prop building early enough
Where you question your sanity and then embrace the fact that you know your friggin NUTS...
never enough black paint
when your house needs fixin up but you travel to home depot to spend ridiculous amounts of money on the things your tearing apart and trying to age to the appropriate decay..
You can tell I am in the mood now can't ya ?
Maybe I just need to craft a clever way to convince myslef halloween is the next day starting in September
Happy Devils Night to all

Paulaween in 3 days

I will be working Halloween night at the Leaning Tree Golf Course. They are having a Halloween Party at least.
Dalton has decided to go Trick or Treating. Don't know if ot was the Gulit Mom( me ) poured on or just second thoughts but YEAH i get to go trick or treating
My costume is all set . I created a witches hat to go with my sexy ( although plus size) witches costume and I am so excited. I have hopes of finishing a witches spell book prior to SAt Night but we also have pumpkins to carve and I have a paper to write do friday night.
So we will see
till the next time
happy Haunting

It had been nearly a week sense my last post. I had intended to be doing a better job of keeping up with this than that.Butt in that almost week I helped my daughter say goodbye to a friend, a friend who sadly took his own life.
I of course saw my own marriage slip down into the darkness, I have no idea why I am still even here. Hopeless as it is I wake up and carry on every day only to be mistreated again. I guess verbal abuse seems to me to not be a justifiable reason to walk away. Although it is, as a educated Woman I know the difference on how we should be treated I know what abuse is. So why is it so hard to believe. Why does it always feel as though I am doing something wrong, aside from the fact that He always blames me.
And my Hisband is ill, and the thought of leaving him always makes me feel so bad knowing he is not well physically or mentally.But then again how is that my problem? He isn't fighting to get better and yes I realize that there are things that no matter how much you wish them away won't go, but he has given up. Dr. Adler told us he is lucky to be alive, I am not so sure anymore.

Hump Day/Prince Spaghetti Day

Weather wise its another downer.
Love this Michigan Weather. What Global Warming?
Supposed to be the warmest day of the fall and its raining. Where did the rain come from? The forcasters rarely get things right anymore.
Oh well, I over slept anyways can't seem to get back into the morning groove. I have started hosting Karaoke at the leaning tree, on Friday and Saturday nights. Don't really need the money ( i mean who can't use some. but it ain't gonna make me rich) just like to sing and need to socialize more than I do. Between Work, School and taking care of my Disabled Family I never get enough done and I am a work first play later kind of girl. So I never get things done and I never take time to enjoy myself . Viscious!
Did I mention I love to sing ? and I am not to bad at it, Not ready for American Idol or anything butt. I can carry a tune or two.
As for my Halloween Decorating troubles, I made myself go out last night and I worked on some Columns that I had glued together and had plans to create. I got 3 of the 5 sides done. I am sure they wont be done or ready to go out for this year. I should really start working on things in august next year.
This year was jsut such a bust what with Jason moving in in June and bringing a household full of crap with him when we only had a bedroom for him. I gave up my storage shed (in addition to the bedroom which I used as my studio) which is where I kept my Halloween stuff that I kept outdoors.
To the others who do Halloween up big time When do you start working on stuff? We always say we are gonna start earlier and never do.
I really need a space to use as a studio. All of my stuff is in the attic in boxes. It sucks
What to do, what to do?
I need more room ,
I need a bigger house and I need more hours in the day.
The Karaoke gig was supposed to be part time not every FRI and Sat and it has been every Fri and Sat for the last 3 weeks
Well thats it for Now
9 more days till Halloween or as my friends say PaulaWeen

Can't find my Mojo

I just can't find it anywhere.
Where did it go ?
Its not as though I do not feel creative or anything I have been working on recreating a art piece I saw in Sumerset Studio's latest issue with the cool halloween art in it.
I can't get myself to get up go out side and do anything about the pathetic way my DH has set up the tombstones.I know I know atleast he is trying to get the stuff out and that is a far cry from where he was a few years ago. He stopped trying to do decorations or help at all. He was always unavailable.
Or maybe its that Dalton said he doesn't want to trick or treat. WTF???
What about Me? the dogs all have costumes where are they gonna go?
At 42 I have never not trick or treated when I became to old I took out theNephews and the niece. then my own kids which trick or treat wise I was lucky they were 10 years apart.
I guess its time to have another kid, Huh? 42 is not to old at all..